Wow, it has been a while since I posted here. I have been trying to have a blog on easyjournal.com, but just as happened with this one, I kept forgetting to post or I was unable to post for one reason or another so there are big gaps in the posts. I guess I will have to try again on here.
I don't think there has been any really BIG news since I last posted. Just that it seems no matter how hard that I try, I can't get things in my life to go the way I would like them to.
I finally got out my painting stuff, went through and made ready to paint, but always seems there is no time for it. Every day I get up I think that I will paint or draw, but every day it works out that there was never any time for me to be able to sit and have any time to myself. I know...what about now? I could almost guarentee that as soon as I sat down to draw or paint, the kids would wake up. It seems to happen all the time. Just like when I find myself in need of a nap in the afternoon. As soon as I lay down, Zoe or the boys wake up and start fussing. I get so frustrated by that it makes me very angry. I know they aren't doing it on purpose, but it doesn't make it any easier for me to deal with. I am a bad father I know. It seems like the more children we have, the worse I get. I feel like that if I don't get some personal time each day, the I am will go mad soon. I have tried to explain it to M but she doesn't seem to be too interested....which brings me to my second point.
But I will save it for another post. Must get my work done as usual.
Sometimes I feel like all I am anymore is just the person that takes care of the kids and the house to her. Like our relationship was more like husband and wife when I was working also. I guess I am just being stupid.
These are the trials and tribulations of a regular guy who bacame his children's Dad.
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