And the Hits Keep Coming

WARNING! Dad whining ahead!

I guess the old saying, 'when it rains, it pours' is a reocurring theam in my life. One of these days it will flood and I will sink strait to the bottom along with all my hopes and dreams.

At about 2:30am the power in the whole area went out for about an hour or so because of another transformer fire. Not necessarily a problem, but I had to stay awake till it went back on so I could reset my alarm so I could get up for work.

Then on the way to work, my car, that we just payed $650 to fix, tried to die on me with the same problem that they said they fixed.

Just after lunch, I get a phone call from my Mother-in-law telling me that my wife was admitted to the hospital so the doctors could monitor the baby's heart rate. At her doctor appointment they told her it was low and she need a stress test. After that they wanted to monitor the baby for at least 24hours (maybe a few days) and to give her steroids to help the baby's lungs and stuff in case something happens and they have to deliver. She is only 28 weeks.

I left work to go to the hospital and the car tried to die again. Then while at the hospital visiting my wife, the power went out and the fire department came to evacuate patients. The emergency power came on and then they got the power going again.

When I got home, I saw on the news that because of the high energy demand and because of two separate fires that destroyed transformers, they would be performing rolling blackouts here. The main area they would blackout just happened to be where I live.

The car loan place keeps calling because we are way late and have no money to pay, the house loan people keep calling because we are way late with them too and obviously can't pay. Our air conditioning isn't working right and it is 90F in here and again we can't afford to fix it. I don't get paid for two weeks still and by that time we will probably lose the car and house.

I feel like screaming! Sometimes it seems like I just can't win. I feel like finding a corner, curling up in a ball and hoping the End will come soon. I fear that I will die a total failure as a Father and Husband.

Maybe I am just being a baby about it, or maybe making more of it that it really is, but I just don't konw what to do.