Doctors Are Clueless.

Well, my wife has been in the hospital since this past Tuesday with no end in sight. She went in because they told her the baby's heart rate dropped and they wanted to keep her for 24 hours. Then the baby's fluid level dropped and she had to drink lots of fluids and go for emersion therapy (swimming pool). Now she is putting out more fluid than she is taking in and they had to give her an IV today. The baby's fluid level is up from when they did the last ultrasound (a larger increase than should be possible).

Every time she has an ultrasound done, they tell her something different.  In the span of a day and a half, the fluid level made a huge jump. I don't think that the doctors or the ultrasound people know what they are doing. Now, they are going to keep her till they decide to deliver the baby. It is supposed to be due in October, but will be here much earlier. I can't imagine being in her position. Not knowing from one day to the next what they will tell her. Not being able to walk around, leave the room. I am sure that she is depressed. Hell, I am depressed, and I get to be at home.

I was home with the kids for over a year, but it wasn't as hard on me as the past week. I don't do much more than when I was a stay at home Dad, but not having my wife here is really hard. The kids really miss her, and I miss her. I am worried about what is going on with the baby and about her and how she is dealing with it.

I feel like I have more resting on my shoulders than I can carry right now and that any little thing that comes now will just crush me flat. I know that I have to take anything that comes my way because I have to be there for my wife and children. I can't let them down. My love for them will not allow it.

I appologize for my babbling. I am just tired.