On the Verge

I am surprised that I made it through yesterday. Nothing really bad happened, it is just that a lot of little things added up by the end of the day and eroded almost all of my self restraint and patience.

It didn't start out bad. The day started out very cloudy and windy and rain seemed inevitable. So, the kids only played outside for a short time. Then while inside, they did everything I told them not to and got into everything they shouldn't have been in. I really wanted to go outside and take pictures, but the weather didn't permit it. So, I decided to take pictures inside. But of course the batteries that I have aren't holding a charge anymore so I could only take a few. Then, my computer wasn't cooperating. My external hard drive that I back up my photos will not show up in the computer and there are no drivers for it. It shouldn't need a driver because it is a "mass storage" device. But, because it is mine, it won't work. ...Sorry, I am complaining and I shouldn't.

Despite all the little things and my inability to deal with them by the end of the day, I still have a good life. I have a wonderful family and even though we are almost always broke, it is not all that bad.

I guess I am just frustrated with not being able to get out of the house. I love my kids, but once in a while I would like to get out of the house by my self and just see whats, out there, shoot some pictures, walk on a trail or just sit by the water. Nothing special, just to clear my mind. But unfortunately, it won't be possible for a long time. In the mean time, I will try my best to keep my cool and tend to my family the best way that I can.