Saturday, August 30, 2008

Kids are The Darndest Things

I planned on sitting here and writing a few things about raising my five kids, but just as I sat down with all these ideas in my head that I deemed worthy of putting down in electronic ink, they decide to wake up. I should know by now that I will never have any time to myself. I was just kidding myself. Every time I try to do something for me, there they are, with some kind of trouble our problem that only I can fix.

During the week, I have to get up at 5am just so I can have a few minutes to myself. Now my wife has to get up at 5am so she can get to work by 6am. I have to wake the my two boys up at 6am in order to get them to the bus by 7am. I thought that on the weekends since I wasn't going to wake them up early, they would sleep later. I was wrong as usual. My youngest son J and my daughter Z got up at 6:30am. No time for me this morning. I wonder how other parents make it through the day without ever getting time for themselves. Or maybe they do get time for themselves and I am doing something wrong. I don't know, but it is getting really annoying lately or maybe I am just getting old. I am going to be 40 next month. It seems like I am old and have been old.

Since I haven't been able to find a job and since I have to watch the kids all day during the week (makes it difficult to find a job) I have signed up to Elance.com. It is a website for people to advertise their services. They pretty much take care of everything including payment between service provider and customer. I still have to upload some of my artwork for an online portfolio, then I can start bidding on jobs. In the meantime I will create a few new logos for my portfolio. I feel confident that I can get enough work on their eventually to make ok money.


Note: I feel both good and bad about staying home with the kids. On one hand, I get to spend time with them and watch them grow and deveop, but on the other hand, I feel guilty that I am not making money for the family and putting all the pressure on my wife. It is hard for me to deal with this dicotme. Are there other stay-at-home dads feel this way?

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