It's a Wonderful Life

That is my favorite movie. When I watch it, I guess I put myself in George Baily's shoes. He had all these dreams of traveling around the world, designing building, going out into the world and proving himself. That is kind of how I felt after I graduated college. I had all these ideas of what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. And just like in the movie, things didn't work out like I planned. In the years that followed he lamented about how he missed out on those wonderful plans he had made and how he didn't like the way his life was going. In the end, he realized how wonderful his life really was despite all disappointments and obsticles he had to overcome. He realized how much he loved his wife and children and that love was great and could overcome any of the trials that life could throw his way.

I have done a lot of thinking lately about all the problems and obsticles that have blocked my path and that now lie before me, Things that I missed out on and things that I will never be able to do. I have concluded that live is not about you missed or how many bills that are late or the lack of money and the problems it causes. For me it is about my family. The ones that I love and cherish. It is about watching my children grow, laugh, smile, cry. It is about the love I have for them and my wife. The happiness that wells up inside me when I come home from work to see my family...

All these things that are going on in my life have led me away from what life is about. I apologize for letting my thoughts of despair push aside what really matters. Often I will pray at night for guidence, for help and know that things will work out the way they are ment to. I must not lose sight of what really matters and not be of a heavy heart.

I know this is crazy rambling, but it is out of happiness not despair.