July 22, 2010

Thursday
J's Birthday
15:40

Today is the J's big day. Eight years ago today he was born. And what an eight years it has been. I can't believe it has been that long and that he is boing to be starting 3rd grade. Hopefully going back to regular school will be good for him.

A big storm is just to the East of us and making a big fuss. It hasn't really gotten here but the weather map on my phone shows it getting closer. I think storms have a hard time getting up the hill to us. The last time it rained a lot down in town, but not so much up here. The same thing happens in the winter with the snow.

M heard from the CPS about our adoption yesterday and the information the gave her changed everything. Our hopes of adopting N's half sister are all gone now. I am heartbroken about what they think happened to her at the hands of her father. But the results are something that I can't bring into my house. I do not know what else to do. I wish I could help her and give her what she needs but that is beyond my ability. If she came to live with us, there would always be the fear that she would hurt one of my kids or herself.